I guess I’m starting to lump these posts together because Momma is so far behind on everything. I know we are about to celebrate your second birth baby boy and I’m STILL in denial. So I’ll start with you.
Dear Drew,
You have grown into a little boy. Not Momma’s baby anymore. It’s breaking my heart because I know you are the baby of this family. I look back on pictures of you over the past year and I can’t believe how big you’ve gotten. There is that fine line of going from baby to little person that just gets to me. It happened with your sister and now it’s officially happened with you. Your frustration level can be so high at times but there are so many days where you truly just your point across by simply pointing at something and saying “Uh-Oh, Door.” Yes that is your favorite saying. I can’t believe how obsessed with doors you are. You don’t like them opened, you want them closed. Everything you say starts with “Uh-Oh”. So something like this “Uh-Oh TT” usually means you saw TT’s car in the driveway and she is home! Or you saw Rylee running around outside and you want to tell me. It’s beyond cute.
As I plan your second birthday party I’m trying so hard to reflect on special memories because……well life gets busy. The day to day is really getting to us these days. We have so much going on but I’m forcing myself to look back on photos as I make your 2 year photo book. I’m concentrating on how much some day I’m going to miss these days. If I could name one thing I love the most about you little man it would be your affection. You are so affectionate. You hug, kiss, blow kisses and you truly just want to be around anyone and everyone.
Here is a funny story. I made it a habit to ask you and your sister if you wanted anything before I sat down to drink my morning cup of coffee. I did this because I’d always sit down and you’d both want more of something and I’d never get to that cup of coffee. Well the first day I started I said “Ok guys do you need anything else before Momma sits down to drink her coffee?” Madison would say “Just a hug and a kiss Momma!” So I’d go and give hugs and kisses to you both. Well as time went on I didn’t have to ask anymore because you finally got that I wasn’t going to get up to get you anything until I was finished my coffee. Now when I cross the living room with my cup of coffee you go “Muah!!!!” from your seat at the picnic table. It melts my heart and makes me see just how smart you are little man!
Your spunky little personality just cracks me up on a daily basis. You dance, jump around and you went from walking to trying to run (which is super cute by the way!) You don’t like to play with toys much, I know it’s normal for your age but it kills me at times. We even go outside and unless I’m actually taking part in the play you just stick close to mom, playing with the door of course. You do love the outdoors, there are some days where you hand me your sneakers at 7am. You have gone through some attachment issues lately. When I drop you off at school you hold onto me and cry. Heart breaking but within the past couple of weeks you’ve done better. You are sensitive little guy, you immediately feel bad when you’ve done something I have to reprimand you on. It’s almost like you already knew what you did was wrong. Then you run over to me (or whoever it was) and hug them. It’s super cute. I love seeing that your sensitive, it’s rare in boys honey so I promise you I will do my best to guide you in the right direction. To teach you how important it is to treat a woman with respect. To show you that it’s ok to communicate and talk about your feelings and most importantly that men and woman should be treated as equals. Your Daddy helps around the house, he’s been known to vacuum and scrub a toilet from time to time 😉 He folds laundry quicker than Momma does.
Stick with me baby boy. I make a solemn promise to you that I will do right by you. I love you to the moon and back.
New Words and Milestones:
Door, Up, Please, Thank You, Car, Outside, Kitty, Doggy, here, eat, poppy, juice, good night, love you, up, Come On. Basically any word we ask you to repeat. TEETH! Where are those 2 year molars, it’s been weeks of torture for all of us off and on baby boy!
Dear Sweet Girl,
Oh where do I begin. In one second you can be sweet and innocent with all the love in the world inside of your eyes, and the next………well I don’t know where you go sweetheart. You are fresh in a way I can’t even explain. Nunney says it’s pay back because I guess Momma used to be fresh too. “Nooooo I don’t want to do that!!! Eh!!!! No!!!!!” I’m blown away at times.
Then on a sweeter side you talk and talk and talk. You ask questions that some days drives Momma nuts but on others your mind simply amazes me. You are going to be one smart little girl I just know it. I wish you wouldn’t worry about some of the things you worry about but I’ll do my best to calm your fears. Bugs………oh the bugs are a big deal for you. This year is way worse than last Spring. You are petrified. We are working through it.
Can I just tell you how stinken proud I was of you this past weekend? You stood up next to your Aunty Minnie while she said “I do.” You took part in her big day and Momma was so happy. You actually had a little bit of fun can you believe it!? We got our nails done (well you didn’t) but you still had fun, we went and had our hair done by Jennifer, which was actually a good time. I’m not going to lie, I was nervous for you and I was scared that I wouldn’t really get to enjoy that “girly” time with you. The “girly” time that I so desperately want from you. However I never pushed you to do anything (besides wear the dress and walk down the isle of course) and I actually really enjoyed it with you. You wanted curlers in your hair like Momma (I secretly cried inside because you wanted something that was like me!) You did so well baby girl and Mommy and Daddy were so proud of you. You even got to wear your spider man jammies after the pictures were done!
And you earned a few things by attending this wedding. Yes you did! Your earned a new TMNT truck and a fishie! Then the following week you earned two more fishies. You decided to them Purr, Ninja and Shark. Too cute.
Sometimes I just lay down with you while your getting ready for a nap (If I can manage to make you take one) or at night. I look at your sweet innocent face and I can’t believe how I created such a beautiful amazing person. This is such a tough age for Mommy and Daddy because we are trying so hard to teach you to be kind and respectful, to have responsibility and to start and show you just what life is really about…..in the mind of a 4.5 year old of course. I know Momma tends to try and reason with you like your an adult and that’s something I’m working on but when Momma is positive and you are happy we make a really good team together. We have so much fun, everyday you ask what we are going to do today. I laugh because you exhaust me some days. Momma collapses after you go to bed when we spend hours at the zoo or make numerous trips to the store shopping and running errands. Gosh I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I know somedays I can loose my patience and seems like Momma is just all about order and rules but I promise you baby it’s only because I want you to appreciate the nice things that we have. I think the part that bothers me the most is I want to be fun! I want to say the heck with discipline! Who needs it, but the good Momma in me takes over and I just have to. Some day you will see.
You truly amaze me little girl. I love you to the moon and back.
Milestones:
You have learnt to spell your name, you know every letter in the alphabet, you LOVE to color and do art work, you can pretend play all day long, you love dance parties and your even doing better with eat food.
