I can’t even believe I’m writing this to you sweet boy. The time is going too fast for me. I can’t believe I’ve sent out invitations to your first birthday party. You completed this family exactly a year ago and it’s so bitter sweet to me. You’ve grown up in so many ways in such a short time. You’ve learnt so much and your really becoming a little boy. I’ve bonded with you in a way I never even thought was possible. It’s not that I didn’t think I would, I just can’t believe my heart could have grown as much as it has in the past year.
You’ll always hear Mommy saying that you were born to change me. I’m such a routine girl. You….. my bug a boo…….are not. Nothing about you is a routine. I’ve fought with myself that past year trying to make our days into a schedule for you, but all I’ve discovered over this period of time is that your a happier boy just going about your day. Your so different than your big sister so Mommy had some changing to do. It is a VERY GOOD thing and Mommy thanks you for it. (maybe not now but I will!!) I look at you everyday and I wonder what you’ll accomplish in life. No matter what you do I know you’ll do it well but I dream. I dream of what you’ll do, what you’ll be and how many lives you are going to touch along the way. Your smile is contagious sweetheart. You 6 little teeth shine when you smile from ear to ear. I couldn’t be more proud to be your Mommy. Look how proud you were here. You got the biggest kick out of throwing the basketball.
You still aren’t crawling. We call it “Scooting”. It’s pretty cute and everyone gets a kick out of it. You scoot on your bum all around the room. You’ve mastered pulling yourself up. All in one week you learnt to get up to a sitting position, pull yourself up, cruise around furniture and now put yourself back down on your bum. It’s so cute. I could sit here and watch you all day long. However I can’t. If I could just sit and play with you and your big sister every second of the day I would do it. Any parent would. I hate the day to day responsibilities of raising a family. I’d much rather be playing with you than cutting up fruit for the week and doing laundry! You are still loving everything you put into your mouth! You truly are your happiest with you are eating my love. I love that you eat anything Mommy makes you. It truly means so much to me. I know as time goes on your’ll grow your pallet and they’ll be somethings you won’t like, but for now I’ll just love it up!
You and your Daddy are creating such a bond these days. Mommy takes Madison on dates and you have your special time with DaDa….you just want to be with him. You’ll sit happily in your swing outside while he does yard work. It’s super sweet to watch from the window at the two men in my life. Your sister…….well. Let’s just say she loves you to pieces but she’s still pretty jealous of you! Hates when you get any kind of attention from anyone but don’t worry we are working on that and the important part is……..she loves you and watches out for you. It’s pretty precious in my eyes.
You are really attached to me these days. You’ll scoot over to me and use my legs to climb up on. Sometimes I have to really make myself appreciate these moments and just love you up. It’s not that I don’t want to my love, it’s just that life gets in the way. I am working so hard on enjoying these moments that won’t be around for long. You are our last baby. You truly completed our family and I get so sad when I think of all these milestones your hitting and how I’ll never get to experience them again. You will forever be my baby. Yes even when I show your naked pictures to your future wife someday 😉
Mommy got a part time job. I work from home now. I’m juggling it and it’s a huge adjustment for me because I’m used to using your nap times as spare moments to myself. You’ll be going to school/daycare in the Fall with your sister. I need 2 days a week to be able to work. Please know I do this with such mixed emotions baby boy. I hate knowing I’ll be dropping you off to strangers. I remember going through this with your sister. She needed the emotional support of another adult besides Mommy. I believe you’ll need that too. It’ll be good for you both to have each other and it’ll be good for Mommy to get work done, earn some money and get some of her Mommy brain back. I started this blog almost 4 yours ago as a hobby to collect and share recipes, the parenthood got tough and I used it as an outlet to vent and talk about my feelings. I then realized that this is something I wanted to dedicate to you and your sister some day. A place where you can see the important times in our lives, our challenges, our happy and sad times. A place where I could document your growth and share it with family and friends who aren’t as close as some. Most importantly this blog is for you and your sister so you can see how I put my heart and soul into all that I do for you both. How much love I put into each dish I prepare for our family. How many personal touches I give to every party we throw. How much creativity to your personalities I put into every craft we do together.
There isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you sweet boy. Now let me show you how you spent your first birthday!! On the actual day of your birthday we were so busy getting ready for your big bash we just had pizza and cake on the deck! Your very first piece of cake my handsome man! Look how much fun you had! You truly enjoyed it!
Then you big bash was that weekend….Momma loves to put special touches on these kinds of days. Treats the kids will enjoy but adults too! I added some fun facts about you and your first year of life. You had an amazing day filled with love, friends and family. Oh and LOTS and LOTS of sunshine! It was a #10 day! Here is your dessert table. Your very own Sunshine cupcake and everything was ready for make your own ice cream sundae’s!!
Here are some of the kids having a blast! Your big sis and all of her friends had so much fun!
Mommy put the Mommy touch on everything!
Here you are with your cupcake while everyone sang Happy Birthday to you! Your big sis blew out your candle for you, I hope she knows she won’t be able to do that next year LOL!
Uncle Dave took professional shots for us of your big day so I’ll share them later, but these are at least a few for now…..I won’t leave you with any tears my sweet boy because you had such an amazing day….Sniff Sniff….Ok maybe just a few because my baby is turning into a big boy way too fast. Here is my birthday boy!! I love you Bug a Boo!
So very cute. Nice pictures too. Thank you.