What’s Up Momma?? Bitch Fest…..

Well I’m not sure how much more writing I’ll be able to get done between now and when my little man decides to join us! I know your probably sick of hearing about it, just as sick as I am of being pregnant!! 🙂 I officially have 9 days until my due date however I’m still secretly hoping baby Drew wants out sooner!

I’m sick of being a waste of life, I’m sick of leaving the house for one-two hours and being exhausted when I return. Sick of being in bed at 8 because my whole body aches. I miss playing with my daughter. I chased her around the yard yesterday and that did me in LOL! I miss her simply laying on my lap 🙁 I miss seeing my friends and I long for being a part of the summer activities that everyone is talking about.

I miss cooking so much, the one thing I seem to be good at, the part of the day I look forward to because I get to do “my thing” and zone out of the day. My husband usually takes over when he gets home spends time with MM and I cook away, we haven’t done this in over 6 months. Since we moved, since he took on “the project”. I miss it and I’m ready to have it back again. The few times I do get to cook, I’m rushed, I usually mess it up and it never comes out the way I like it to. Photographing, forget it, haven’t even had a chance to get better at that since the move. However I have 6 frozen meals in the freezer for when the Babe comes, that will help us get through the first 2 weeks of survival. Here we are, Me, Madison and baby Drew, do you think that she knows that baby Drew is already taking up her space!

Anyone who doesn’t know too much about may not know that my daughters birth was NOT easy. I’ll spare you the details but I was 4 days past my due date when they decided to induce me because my amniotic fluid was getting too low. Though I’d hate to go past my due date this time too, I’m destined to let my body go into labor on it’s own this time so I’m willing to suck it up if I have to! Being induced is not fun and I think it made my story ten times worse! I have yet to hear a good story about a mom being induced!! I’m staying positive though, obviously I’m alive to talk about it, AND it surly didn’t stop me from having another so………….waiting we shall do! I’m getting as much rest as I can, it’s been tough. We’ve been in our new house for 6 months now however my husband has been working nights and weekends on building my sisters apartment onto our house. Yes my mom is here on an in-law too, yes I’m very lucky to have the help, trust me I know. I wouldn’t make it through some days without them so I’m very grateful for my sisters energy who can run around the yard with my 2.5 year old and my mothers awesome cooking skills so I don’t have to cook dinner every  night these days. My heart is hurting my for my husband because I know how hard this has been on him. Though he’s doing what he loves to do (design things, build things, work with his hands), he’s still missing time with Madison and me for that matter. He does an awesome job juggling things and making time for it all however we are crunched for time and he’s working every spare second he can (well when the Bruin’s aren’t playing of course!) I’m looking forward to the time he is going to take off from work when our son is due. We’ve been setting ourselves up financially for him to be able to hopefully stay home for a month with us. To just enjoy each other as a new family.

We’ve been making the most of our time together me and Madison. I’ve treasured every second of our time together seeing as I’m a big ball of mess thinking about never having this alone time back again! We go and have lunch once every other week or so, we play outside when it’s not raining, we attend music classes or momma groups when we can, and next week we have hair appointments together! We had our first full day up at the camp a few weeks ago, probably won’t do that again seeing as it tuckered us both out to no end, we skipped her nap, by 5pm the pour kid couldn’t even hold up her fork at dinner. She just did NOT want out of the water!

My sister says I’m “over prepared” but I’m just being a Mommy in my eyes. Getting ready for my son the same kind of way I got ready for MM. buying him cloths, swaddle blankets, burp cloths, getting them folded and prepared, getting bottles prepped, Madison situated as much as I can. I know she is so close to potty training and transitioning into a big girl bed. I’ve bought everything I could buy to have everything ready. We’ve got 2 potty’s, 2 potty seats, the potty chart, the potty prizes, the new night light for when it’s time to get out of our big girl bed, a CD for bed time, the actual big girl bed, I even bought my babes matching 4th of July outfits (In hopes that this little bambino will be here by then!) Call me crazy but I’m ready!! Potty prizes galore here!!

I love taking care of my family, it’s what I do, I enjoy it, but at times hate it, I wouldn’t have it any other way, and there are times I want to go back to work! These past few weeks got me thinking a lot because I’ve depended on family to help me with my daughter so much but it’s hard for me, it’s my family, it’s what I”m supposed to do, but I try to keep in mind that’s what friends and family are for and I”m so lucky to have them.

She loves playing outside, even though NOTHING seems to keep her busy for more than 5 minutes. I know most people would say that’s a typical 2 year old however it’s hard when I see other children and their attention span seems to last hours at two and half. It is what it is, but from day one of my daughter walking I’ve been saying she is ADHD because of that very attention span, because it’s in our family, because she can’t seem to concentrate on one thing for more than 5 minutes, she can’t sit in front of a TV for 30 min while I prep dinner, never has and probably never will. There could be worse wrong with her so I go about my day and make the best of it, even if I am drop dead exhausted by 4pm everyday. I’d like to say it’s pregnancy but I have to admit when I think back, I was pretty exhausted come 6pm every other night when I wasn’t “with child!” Hey maybe it’s just parenthood in general but man I’ve aged!!

We’ve had some rainy days lately……..where we’ve waited and waited for the sun to come out…..

We even waited with our best buds.

Then we had some fun in the sun days. Where Momma got to do something for Drew. Though it ended up being ten times harder than I originally planned! Waiting until I was 9 months pregnant to do this project was not a good idea, too much bending in places I can’t bend anymore! I only have two more coats to go on this!! It will be a second changing table for us so at least we will have one on the bottom floor and the top floor of our house!

Don’t worry MM keeps herself busy in the kiddie pool! She loves her juice boxes on the porch, in her new chair!!

Don’t worry I have great things lined up for you this summer. I have a bag log of new recipes to share with you!! I have some Guest Posts lined up, Featured Friday will be on hold after this week, but don’t worry I have some great things to share with you while I spend some time with my family!! Enjoy the Summer everyone!! This Momma will!